my sassy lil sis

So I am so happy I got some family time in this week, on top of everything else. When life hands you lemons, just go hang out with Ava and she will make you forget all your worries. I love my little chicken bella. I remember when she was a baby. No one could hold her because she would cry. But she loved me!!! I love kids and babies. Which is why I love my job. Even when the workplace is stressful and overwhelming... I am still grateful to have a cool job. The late night hours and commute have made me sick lately. I really just want the semester to be over, take a trip, and sleep by the beach to the sound of ocean waves. YUSSSSS! Thats what I want.
I am tired. I better not ramble past my limits. I say stupid things when I am tired. And I want some sushi.
D

what the?!?

So Sorrry I am such the slack head! Ewwww an I killed a tiny bug that was flying around my computer. Eeeek! Bah anyway, you don't wanna hear about crap. I royally suck at posting pics with the challenge. I did put up a couple. And now I still gotta catch up. WRONG TIMING. Meh. I am not sassfrastic tonight. In fact, I am kinda on a weird streak. I feel like goo. I started drinking protein again and I think it explodes in my gut and then reeks havoc on my innards. So yeah. No.  I think too much. But I am too tired to be witty. I just need to say to everyone I am happy. But onery. Goodnight.
Check the part deux page. I posted a couple pics. (:
D

Day ocho! That's 8...

Oh me oh my. How I wish I knew more spanish. So I have had the day off and now I am catching up on the photo challenge. You see, my people, the sagittarians are always looking for too much to do. Our plate can always make room for a little more. That is until the plate breaks! Haha! Crap. Well I am so grateful for my teacher of my clinical physiology class. She let me catch up!!! Yay! And as for life in general. It seems that when I make better decisions and choose to better myself internally as well... things get better in my life. I am in love with life. I just wish I had more time to enjoy it. I think I am gonna go take a nap because I didn't sleep much before 9am church. Ick! I don't DO mornings. But please enjoy day 8:Something purple
My cute bedding!!! I love pin-tuck and satin, lace, etc. Super cute!!! This bedding was a gift. I have the cutest curtains and wanted to match the theme, if you will.

Prettiness (:
D

well well, look who is back from the North POLE!!!

Uhhh me. Figuratively speaking. I have been far to busy to play childish games such as this photo challenge... lol JUST KIDDING. I have worked graves, been sick, caught up on homework, cleaned the aparty. Sooooo much to do. But I did however catch up tonight on my challenge. The sunset wasn't really a sunset bc the clouds were threatening to thunder and rain! But nonetheless I think it turned out cool. Its the same place as last years... Which I realized as I started to type. Ooops. Well its a different sunset. Then PUMA, he who doesn't cooperate... is the" thing I love" but I had to catch him in his own element. Loungin like a slug. Thirdly, bokeh is the japanese word for blur. Most bokeh you see is with light! I loooove light! But its not firework time yet. booooo. So I improvised and played with my camera. Its all about the photographer and her love for her camera. It will take what you tell it to!!! (: Happy day! Bletch!I am still coughing a bit. I really thought I was never gonna stop! But alas, diet coke eats the rust off metal and oil off driveways right? So it should eat the phhhlegggggm in my throat and sinus cavity. HAHA! yus!!!

You have a good night now. Did I tell you my man friend has a hottttt (barely) southern accent. I love it when he is sleeeepy! So adorable! mmmm! I am so retarded. I think I used the last of my brain cells to  do homework tonight! If you are still reading this... stop. And admire my chedda man. (:
xo, d

Day 4 water.

Sorry for the craptastic posty but I had to do it from the iPhone. And due to my recent financial status ie broke... I don't have an iPad to edit and beautify the picture more. I chose this pic because it is exactly what depicts water. Life saving water. This is sterilized water for ventilation and such. Which is pretty cool. Work is rough tonight. I'm completely exhausted. My brain is fried and I'm on sleeps doorstep. On the bright side... Wait there is no bright side. I'm too tired to be perky. Although a Kim and dad of a baby I'm taking care of tonight said I was delightful and perky. Huh?! I explained that this was the toned down version bc I was getting over a cold. Lol! Either way. I didn't drink a diet coke tonight. That's my prob bob! MF! Lesson learned. Enjoy the picty
D

Day 3 shizzle: Defying Gravity...

How does one do this you ask? Well when you are in love... it seems you defy all the impossible! I was thinking of jumping out of a plane with a chute and defying that way... I even thought of throwing puma in the air and snapping the shot mid fall... but I decided on the safe zone. Where being sick has kicked my trash and I am pretty much home bound for LIFE!!! So I decided to throw my body against the wall. Now the second question I know you are asking, but I will put your mind at ease. The man-boy did watch the whole shoot on skype just in case I killed myself or something he could call 9-11. But in reality I am sure it was to get in a good laugh before he went to bed. haha! This was the best shot I could do on the self timer so deal. The third Q you are asking me journal blog... Who the heck is this guy? Truthishly? Well he is just some guy I met off state street while me and my girlfriends were dragging... and he was like , "hi." and I was like, "hi back." Bahhhahaha! Just kidding! Sorry for the horrible picture quality! It is pretty much crap but that bc I was moving and the lighting was crap and I am uhhh upside-down?!?!? Plus I had an audience so I was kinda stupidified. Meh?! Now to go drain my head again... Hey lookie at the bright side! I may have cleared my lungs by standing upside down!!! teehehe. 

Don't hate on my being goofy tonight. Its all his fault..I am about to take cough syrup so its better I post now haha! Argh! Do you feel like looking at another skypey skype face of this fool? Ya for some reason I am swooped... Thats like whipped but guys are whipped and girls get swept off their feet. So I have been swooped... lol! Oh my gosh so that reminded me of something we were laughing at tonight. He brought up cool whip I think somehow. Remember the episode of FAMILY GUY where Stewie and the dog Brian were arguing about how to pronounce cool whip? Yes. So stupid right? hahaha! But we both found it funny. AND YOU CAN TOO!!! 

Words to live by...

Here's to feeling better and staying positive... xoxo, D

day 2...cheating

well good stinkin bright morning journal blog. Its bright out. Woke myself up coughing...lingering cough. ugghhghhgh. just to realize my clenching jaws gave me a headache. Aren't I just a basket case this morning? So day two eh? I actually took pics of some stuff that were pink in my studio. but... not a fan. I wanted something cooler than just photo props. So I ditched those pics and found this one on my iPhone.

I looooove 

 

right? 

I love smell goods too!!! And I loooove pink! So here you go!

Oh Lola By Marc Jacobs. Mmmmm smells delish. And good for the environment. How so you ask? Well if I were to wear this perfume... Alll would be well with me. And if all was well with me, then there would be peace with those around me. And if there was peace with those around me then there would be no crime in my town... and so on until until there was happiness in all the land. Ok so I am a little sleep deprived. Blame it on the sicky-ness and lingering gunk.

I do however have a need to shout out to the world how happy I have been lately. I have never felt so ok and positive about things as I do right now. School is school. It is almost done!!! Yippee!!! I have been trying to better myself and make better choices in life even though it is hard. And cussing is my all time favorite outlet. I GOT A STINKIN PARKING TICKET FOR PARKING OUTSIDE MY OWN APT last night. I forgot my car was even parked there... and I went to move it and there was a lovely note from Draper city.Boooo. But that won't keep me down. I can't even keep this sap to myself anymore! This mug has me melted. To the floor:









hmmmm to be continued!

30 day photo challenge DAY 1

Day 1: Self Portrait! Ok so I am so super excited to start taking pictures again! I have a studio set up and new back drop stands and material so I decided to break it all out. I also purchased a wicked awesome steamer to steam out wrinkles!!! It works like too well I was all giddy!!! Whaaa! So I got the clicker in my left hand again. lol! Gotta love post process... although I didn't Photoshop it out. Meh. Who gives? And the funny part is most of my pics are of me making faces while trying not to laugh on speaker phone with the Man Boy. SO this is what you get! Soon for the good stuff. 

Anyway, I am still a little sicky. Lingering cough and sticky throat gunk. Makes for a noisy sacrament. haha! But hey! I still went to church and the building is still standing as we speak! So I must be making some good decisions. Also did you know you can get anything on the iPhone these days? I don't know what I would do without that sucker, although I still wish I had an iPad. Meh. Wish/want... I got what I need and that all I can ask for. I have a ton of homework to do so I better get on it!

xoxo, D
hApPy SUNDAY!!!

my current projects!

Baaahaha nice face

Yes that's right ladies and gentlemen. This half retard/ half surfer is currently property of mine. But I adore him to all bits and pieces!!! Picture- Not too bad for a web cam eh? lol! yeah not a fan of the whole distance thing but then again... its nice to have the week off to lay around sick as a slug with a messy apt and bad hair do/no make-up without having to try to impress someone else! But then again it would be super cool to have someone to slum around with while I lay dead and beg for my sinuses to dry up like the dead sea. However, I have enjoyed the use of modern technology and such, caught up with homework, started AND finished a craft project, and managed to do a boudoir session this week. So I would say it has been slightly underproductive for this MULTITASKER! My crafty project however turned out stellar I already put it on the wall!!!

Canvas with paint and BUTTONS!!!

How cool is this?!?!?
Ok so a little off topic? JULY 15th DAY 1 of the photo challenge: meaning Tassie, I waited for you so you better join me!!! And anyone else who would like to play!!! I would also like to note that there are no professional talents needed in this fun idea! Just a matter of doing it per days list and writing about it. Put it on your facebook in an album titled 30 day photo challenge, post it daily on your blog like me, or just in a scrapbook for your self! I am so psyched to actually start!
Day 1: Self Portrait! let's begin the fun peoples.
http://luvthegoodlife.blogspot.com/p/30-day-photo-challenge-part-deux.html

xoxo, D

Hello world!

Ok so funny as it seems. Remember the sweet pic I posted of ales from VS? Where she is standing against the curtains with them wide open saying "hello world!" ok secret to tell you. I'm going to be doing a boudoir shoot next weeky!! The photog is amazing Amy Cloud ie Aime Boudoir. She is amazing!!! And so talented. I like to learn from her passion towards photography and light! I am do negative towards myself. I just read like my last 10 posts on here. What the heck!?!? So this would be my opportunity to show myself I can be beautiful inside and out. Love the beautiful life! I really can't stinkin wait! What a cool experience.
http://amycloudphotography.com/

Baaahahahaha?!? Ain't that the truth? It's sad we women are so bitter!!

Live the good life.

What am I doing? I've lost my best friend. My family has all moved on without me. My job kicks my ass. My rent is excruciating. And my only true love is puma. Who loves me for me!!! I have been thinking tonight... I know. Bad idea. There are too many guys and dbags that have managed to upset me or break my stupid heart or lie or cheat or even break stupid covenants. What am I doing? I will tell you. I am messing and mucking up my life. I'm never going to find peace and eternal happiness by dating these people!!! I don't want to date anymore!!! I want to live the good life! Find what I love that makes me happy. Stop feeling bad for all the stupid crap I do or say. And stop letting them push me down. I deserve to live a good life. And if living it alone is what I have to do to be happy... Then so freakin be it!! I had a weird couple dreams today. Funny how the wake up call of this comes at the most unwelcome of times. This life is meant to be a purpose. For me to learn and grow and teach my offspring. But if I don't have a family it's ok. I'm too old to play games. To be treated like I don't matter. To be used. And hated. I have no self worth... So I let all the other people tell me and show me my worth.. The life I want to live doesn't exist. The love I want to find is imaginary. The future I hold in my hand is temporary. The past I relive is haunting me. The people in my life are living for them selves. And so should I. I don't need a diamond ring or a fancy house to prove I'm awesome. I don't need a fairy tale wedding to show all the world that I'm desired!!! And I don't need to have kids to prove I am a good provider and teacher. I love life. I love summer. I loathe my age. Ugh. I'm so old. I hate it!!! This post is completely negative. It's making me upset just venting!!! I really don't know what I want. Just what I don't want... Which you think it would narrow things down. But truth is I just need to get out of this state. Out of the chaos and judgmental people. Out of the unwelcome and the hypocrisy. Out of Zion which almost burned to hell this week. If that isn't a sign this life is short and we need to stop being assholes to each other... I don't know what is!!! Zion. Which president hinckley once talked about.

"October General Conference, 2002
The next item I wish to mention is family home evening. We are fearful that this very important program is fading in too many areas. Brethren, there is nothing more important than your families.

None of us knows when a catastrophe might strike. Sickness, injury, unemployment may affect any of us.

I do not predict any impending disaster. I hope that there will not be one. But prudence should govern our lives. Everyone who owns a home recognizes the need for fire insurance. We hope and pray that there will never be a fire. Nevertheless, we pay for insurance to cover such a catastrophe, should it occur.

Too many are being caught in the web of immorality and all of the bitter fruit that flows from it. To the boys who are here tonight—the young men—I wish to say in the strongest language of which I am capable, stay away from moral iniquity. You know what is right and wrong. You cannot use ignorance as an excuse for unacceptable behavior.

How can you possibly think that you can become involved in immoral practices and then go into the mission field as a representative of the Lord Jesus Christ? Do you suppose that you can be worthy to go to the house of the Lord, there to be married for time and eternity, if you have indulged in such practices? [...] To you mature men I extend the same plea and the same warning. Small beginnings lead to great tragedies. We deal with them constantly. There is so much of heartache, resentment, disillusionment, and divorce among us.

Stay away from the erotic stuff of the Internet. It can only pull you down. It can lead to your destruction.

May I again mention a matter with which I have dealt at length in the past. I speak of the evil and despicable sin of child abuse. We cannot tolerate it. We will not tolerate it. Anyone who abuses a child may expect Church discipline as well as possible legal action. Child abuse is an affront toward God.

Our whole strength rests on the validity of that vision. It [The First Vision] either occurred or it did not occur. If it did not, then this work is a fraud. If it did, then it is the most important and wonderful work under the heavens.

I knew a so-called intellectual who said the Church was trapped by its history. My response was that without that history we have nothing. The truth of that unique, singular, and remarkable event [The First Vision] is the pivotal substance of our faith.

If we fail in our homes, we fail in our lives. No man is truly successful who has failed in his home."

Remember we need to try every day to better ourselves and set an example. I need to as well!!! I have let my pride and my fear take over my soul. My spirit. Truth is that I feel I don't deserve that life I want. I have a feeling that I can be saved by a worthy man. Loved and cherished and brought to reality. Since when did I deserve to be treated like garbage? Used and abused in all sorts of ways?!? I am sorry for the real post tonight journal blog... I just had to get this all off my chest!!
D

trial and error

So bare with me here... I am an idiot who can't get a REAL date so I have turned to online dating to find it for me... OR for them to find me! EEEEKKKK! Crazies out there. You would be shocked to see what I get off a paid site, well two actually. MATCH and ZOOSK. And if they can't spell, well that's just craptastic. There's a difference between YOU'RE and YOUR... haha and if you still live at home or have baby mama drama please keep walking. I am picky dangit! I am so freakin proud of the accomplishments I have made that I don't want to settle for anything less. But I would give up a few things for the more important ones for sure. Yes please have a job. Yes please have college done or near done... But its ok if they are still working on it. The type I am looking for is the same as me. Affectionate, caring, thoughtful, and outgoing! So I totally had a blasty laughing with one of these types. On the downfall... they can be moody and unpleasant when their mind wanders towards the dramatic side. So How can I get my perfect 10/10 man? Maybe he doesn't exist. Maybe he is not even in this state. But my mind still wants to see.. test it out... trial and error. I am so flippin tired. I am not even making any sense.
So here is my toast:

here's to the guys who love us,

the losers who left us, and the

lucky ones who get to meet us.

here's to the moments where we didn't think about right & wrong;

where we just lived, crossed our fingers, and hoped for the best.

FOR YOUR PURE ENJOYMENT AND ENTERTAINMENT: (thanks dumb.com)

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• Airhead (er*hed) n. What a woman intentionally becomes when pulled over by a policeman. 
• Argument (ar*gyou*ment) n. A discussion that occurs when you're right, but he just hasn't realized it yet. Balance the checkbook (bal*ens da chek*buk) v. To go to the cash machine and hit "inquire." 
• Bar-be-que (bar*bi*q) n. You bought the groceries, washed the lettuce, chopped the tomatoes, diced the onions, marinated the meat and cleaned everything up, but *he* "made the dinner." 
• Blonde jokes (blond joks) n. Jokes that are short so men can understand them. 
• Cantaloupe (kant*e*lope) n. Gotta get married in a church. 
• Clothes dryer (kloze dri*yer) n. An appliance designed to eat socks. 
• Diet Soda (dy*it so*da) n. A drink you buy at a convenience store to go with a half pound bag of peanut M&Ms. 
• Eternity (e*ter*ni*tee) n. The last two minutes of a basketball game. 
• Exercise (ex*er*siz) v. To walk up and down a mall, occasionally resting to make a purchase. 
• Grocery List (grow*ser*ee list) n. What you spend half an hour writing, then forget to take with you to the store. 
• Hair Dresser (hare dres*er) n. Someone who is able to create a style you will never be able to duplicate again. See "Magician."
• Hardware Store (hard*war stor) n. Similar to a black hole in space - if he goes in, he isn't coming out anytime soon. 
• Childbirth (child*brth) n. You get to go through 36 hours of contractions; he gets to hold your hand and say "focus, breath push..." 
• Lipstick (lip*stik) n. On your lips, coloring to enhance the beauty of your mouth. On his collar, coloring only trashy women would wear...! 
• Park (park) v./n. Before children, a verb meaning, "to go somewhere and neck." After children, a noun meaning a place with a swing set and slide. 
• Patience (pa*shens) n. The most important ingredient for dating, marriage and children. See also "tranquilizers". 
• Valentine's Day (val*en*tinez dae) n. A day when you have dreams of a candlelight dinner, diamonds, and romance, but consider yourself lucky to get a card. 
• Waterproof Mascara (wah*tr*pruf mas*kar*ah) n. Comes off if you cry, shower, or swim, but will not come off if you try to remove it. 
• Zillion (zil*yen) n. The number of times you ask someone to take out the trash, then end up doing it yourself ...anyway.

This is Danielle reporting off, Thanks for stopping by San Diego

dropping off like flies on a zapper

So today I found out that one of my ex boys is getting married to this beautiful Latina girl. It made me go back and recall all the guys I have dated/loved or even the one I married past, etc and realize that they have moved on!  Either they are getting married, returning to ex GF, having kids with their GF, turning gay ( I am not kidding!) or moving to an entirely different city/state! So remember I believe that everything happens for a reason? Signs that I TOO should move on. haha! But I will do none of those things above noted... lol! So, this boy, it WAS three years ago... and he did have two girls which we all know I am not ready for that! Nor was I before. Its funny actually. Funny how life turns out! I can't wait to have that in my life but I want it to be my own. My littles. My mini me's running around torturing boys on the playground, playing dress up with momma's high heels, cute pig tails and tutus, tiny tantrums and hugs. :) horray! for life and its amazing blessings.
I gotta get ready for work now but I sure wish all you past/present/future guys in my life the very most amazing best life you can imagine! And I thank you for being my friends etc and teaching me so much about myself and my passion for love and friendship. Oh and patience... which I am still working on. Happy JULY 2nd! It's a beautiful day. Go enjoy it for me while I work indoors!

xoxo, muah!
D

music eh?

this display of cake pops makes me happy!



What else makes me happy? Music. I have like four new hip-hop club mix songs that I love to listen because it makes me feel good.

Calvin Harris Feat Ne Yo - Let's Go 

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Chris Brown - Turn Up The Music

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Usher - Scream

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Jennifer Lopez Feat. Flo Rida - Goin In

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What else? I am loving my guitar. So far I am learning:

• Church-milky way
• A & J stone-All of me
• Sam and the Pharaohs- Little red riding hood.
• The Wanted- Glad you Came

But I totally can't play loud bc of my sleeping neighbors... So here I sit, refusing to peruse my next homework assignment. In my bedroom on my bed. Puma is like "shut up!!" But I should really try to sleep a little. Even though my life is messy!!! My house is messy! My room... my kitchen. My feng shui is all sorts of messed.