Here we are...

Well darn its almost 2014 and I am still stuck in 1999. Not really but c'mon. I don't feel 30. What the heck? hahaha
So tonight, I am on graveyard mode sleep schedule and wide awake. I am not loving the insomnia but I am getting lots of Christmas present stuff done. I had a date Tues night and missed the VS Fashion Show. I love Victoria's Secret. I don't know what I would do without the panties and bras and pajamas and hoodies! I am a total girl and I love it! When I was a little girl I wanted to grow up and be a model. Now I just grew up. lol
http://vsallaccess.victoriassecret.com/fashionshow/on-demand/

You better believe I watched it on demand! It was awesome. Not as cool as the last one though. I mean, they did the Calendar for goodness sakes. The one from 2012 was just awesome. It had the Heaven song by Bruno Mars and I still love that song! This year was all about fallout boy and taylor-gag swift.


So I have this epic plan that has a lot to do with this video, my future husband, and silly me. Don't ruin the surprise!!! eeeeeeiiiiiiiiii!!! (high pitched joyous squeal)
Anyway, I am still sifting and searching. Its kinda hard spending the holidays alone. (Halloween, my bday, cmas, new years!) This time of year seems so insignificant and meaningless. But alas, I must dredge along. On a good note, School starts in like 3 weeks. I will spend the next year and half perfecting my passion for photography. I am all artsy fartsy like that. Always have been. Even learned to sew and I have taken it to new extremes and such. I paint and I love music. What next? Bring it on baby!
GAHHHHH!! I could just watch VS Fashion Show bits all night. I love Candice and Allesandra! Follow them on twitter or insta. They are just adorbs. I totes love them!
G'night my peeps of slc and the interweb.
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The curse of the inability to sleep

I'm really tired of not being able to shut my mind off to sleep. My work sched is so unhealthily up and down and crappy hours and nights and weekends and holidays don't mix well with my insomnia. I am also tired. Tired of men. Boys. Guys. Whatever. I can't take it anymore. My life consists of responsibility and I'm tired of that too. I've been organizing and cleaning my house. I have a way of budgeting or lack of per say that makes me anxious until payday every freakin day. I get bored. I go shop. I surf eBay. I buy lulu lemon and Victoria's Secret gym wear. Just to feel too fat to even be seen at the gym. So. Someone. Give me a tip on how to succeed in my own head. And damnit I wanna lose weight but lack the discipline to do so. It's hard to cook for one. But then I eat cafe rio or vanilla bean ice cream cuz it makes me happy. Then I'm fat. Then I'm unhappy cuz in fat and single. Ugly. Broke. And boring anymore. 30 ain't what I expected. I'm trying to love the good life but I kinda think it sucks. I didn't sign up for this. That's for sure. What's next? Forty fat and frumpy? Yay woohoo go me... 

"Sagittarius horoscope for Dec, 03, 2013 (The DailyHoroscope by Comitic) 

 Sagittarius horoscope for Dec, 03, 2013 

 Hopelessness does not become you, Sagittarius. Your friends and loved ones see you as an optimist. And even when you aren't feeling particularly optimistic, you plow ahead anyway. You are filled with determination, willpower, and a can-do attitude. Lately, though, you may have lost sight of hope in a certain area of your life. But that's only because you have endured a few knocks. The key to feeling hopeful again is simply to acknowledge that you've lost your way in that respect, and to be realistic. Yes - realistic! That's because you'll soon have plenty to be hopeful about! "