The curse of the inability to sleep

I'm really tired of not being able to shut my mind off to sleep. My work sched is so unhealthily up and down and crappy hours and nights and weekends and holidays don't mix well with my insomnia. I am also tired. Tired of men. Boys. Guys. Whatever. I can't take it anymore. My life consists of responsibility and I'm tired of that too. I've been organizing and cleaning my house. I have a way of budgeting or lack of per say that makes me anxious until payday every freakin day. I get bored. I go shop. I surf eBay. I buy lulu lemon and Victoria's Secret gym wear. Just to feel too fat to even be seen at the gym. So. Someone. Give me a tip on how to succeed in my own head. And damnit I wanna lose weight but lack the discipline to do so. It's hard to cook for one. But then I eat cafe rio or vanilla bean ice cream cuz it makes me happy. Then I'm fat. Then I'm unhappy cuz in fat and single. Ugly. Broke. And boring anymore. 30 ain't what I expected. I'm trying to love the good life but I kinda think it sucks. I didn't sign up for this. That's for sure. What's next? Forty fat and frumpy? Yay woohoo go me... 

"Sagittarius horoscope for Dec, 03, 2013 (The DailyHoroscope by Comitic) 

 Sagittarius horoscope for Dec, 03, 2013 

 Hopelessness does not become you, Sagittarius. Your friends and loved ones see you as an optimist. And even when you aren't feeling particularly optimistic, you plow ahead anyway. You are filled with determination, willpower, and a can-do attitude. Lately, though, you may have lost sight of hope in a certain area of your life. But that's only because you have endured a few knocks. The key to feeling hopeful again is simply to acknowledge that you've lost your way in that respect, and to be realistic. Yes - realistic! That's because you'll soon have plenty to be hopeful about! "