I am un-datable!

I am the common denominator in all my failed relationships/dating experiences... hence the light bulb! makes sense now. BING! Ok besides my undying fear of rejection and crying frantically until I soothe my sorry dumped/dumper ass with chocolate, I am totally living in a fairy tale world. Exhibit A: Latest boy, totally a babe, totally a catch, totally... not into me. And you know what, I am just fine with that actually. I made the decision tonight that I am happy with myself and I can do ALL things for myself. Exhibit B: the guy who is still married but swears he is 'getting divorced' and thinks I would make a good mommy to his kids. Bagggggage. Drammmmma. End of story. Exhibit C: Uhm any other guy I have dated in 2012. Exhibit D: for douche bag, the ex bf of two years. See a trend here? All lie, all manipulate, all play with my emotions and I LET IT HAPPEN cuz I am a nice chick. Well I am too busy for games. I do not need to beg for a man to want to see me or date me. I'd rather be single than pathetic. So the problem none-the-less is myself. I need to change my outlook on dating. I am in it to win it. I am the trophy wife and any guy that ends up with me will get a nurse, a a cook, a crafty woman, a sexy woman O;  and a fun girl, a good future mom, a sweet heart, treats at work, surprise txts during the day, sweet nothings just because and everything else that I have to offer as a woman.
As for the match.com foolery- When I see guys that are 'never married' status I begin to think ... well in history past they have proven to be jerks and/or too picky or just afraid of commitment. What is their deal? Or divorced, no kids... Hmmm similar story to me? Or married for 3 months kinda jig? I dunno. Either way I wonder how I am gonna end up another check on their 'she's nice but not THE ONE' list. When is it gonna be my turn. Hmph! hahaha! Anyway
So this week I am playing mommy. My brother is still outta town and my sister in law went to go get him and spend a week in the bahamas... booo hoo... And I have ellie. She is 4 and says the darndest things. HAHAHA
So the reason I thought of this... Our convo in the car earlier today

Ellie: Danielle? Do you live alone?
Me: No I live with puma
Ellie: I know but where's your husband?
Me: Ellie you know I am not married
Ellie: I know but you need a husband, you are so nice.
Me: Ellie, you don't need a husband to live
Ellie: When I am big I will have a husband
Me: Save yourself the trouble

hahaha she looked confused (:
We have painted pumpkins, gone shopping, made caramel apples, created a haunted graham cracker house with confection frosting and candy, player with glowsticks, baked and cooked, and kidnapped my ddad for lunch. Its been a busy two days so far. Being a mom is hard work. But so far. So good.
As for the latest boy... I will keep trying. He is worth the work but I am not sure if I have it in me to keep going. I would much rather ME be worth the work. Grrrrrr. Why must life be this difficult. I just want to enjoy it dangit! Well I am gonna. Cheers darlin.

Song of the day: Andy Grammer: Miss Me



JUST LET ME HAVE MY FAIRY TALE!

D